On this blog, we’ve talked a lot about healing from toxic relationships and staying away from toxic people. In those posts, the spotlight was aimed at others, not us. But we know we can’t always be the victim in every story. What if we’re the villains in some of those stories?
Nobody wakes up one morning and decides, “You know what? I want to become emotionally exhausting today.” Most toxic behaviours don’t appear out of nowhere.
Sometimes they are learned from unhealthy environments. Sometimes they develop as survival mechanisms after betrayal, neglect, rejection, or trauma. And sometimes, we simply repeat what we grew up seeing without realising how damaging it has become.
Here’s the uncomfortable truth: pain may explain toxic behaviour, but it does not excuse it. Accountability is difficult because it forces us to stop seeing ourselves only as victims and start examining the ways we may also be hurting other people. The good news is that self-awareness is the first step toward growth.
So, if you’re brave enough to look inward, here are six signs you might be the toxic person in some of your relationships.
1. You Struggle to Apologise Sincerely: A toxic pattern many people have is turning every apology into an excuse.
Instead of saying: “I was wrong, and I hurt you.”
It becomes: “I only did it because you made me angry.” Or: “I’m sorry you feel that way.”
That’s not accountability. That’s deflection.
Some people grew up in environments where admitting fault was seen as weakness, so they became defensive adults who avoid responsibility at all costs. But healthy relationships require humility.
If every disagreement ends with you explaining away your behaviour instead of owning it, people around you may eventually stop feeling emotionally safe with you. A sincere apology acknowledges harm without trying to escape accountability.
2. You Constantly Need to Control Everything: Do you become irritated when people don’t do things your way? Do you try to manage other people’s decisions, friendships, appearance, or behaviour? Do you use guilt, anger, silent treatment, or emotional pressure to get your way?
Control is often rooted in fear. People who grew up around instability sometimes become controlling because unpredictability makes them anxious. They believe controlling situations will protect them from disappointment or abandonment.
Here’s the problem with that: control suffocates relationships. Healthy relationships involve trust, autonomy, and respect for boundaries. If you constantly need to dominate conversations, control outcomes, or emotionally manipulate people into obeying you, it may be time to ask yourself why letting go feels so terrifying.
3. You Make Everything About Yourself: We all want to feel seen and understood. But toxic behaviour often shows up when someone consistently centres themselves in every situation. For example:
• Your friend shares good news, and you immediately shift the focus back to your own life.
• Someone opens up about their pain, and you dismiss it because you’ve had it worse.
• You expect emotional support from others, but rarely offer the same in return.
Relationships cannot survive one-sided emotional labour. Sometimes this behaviour comes from unmet emotional needs or years of feeling ignored. But if every conversation revolves around you, people may start feeling drained rather than connected to you. A healthy relationship leaves room for both people to exist emotionally.
4. You Weaponise “Honesty”: There’s a difference between honesty and cruelty disguised as honesty. Toxic people often say hurtful things and then defend themselves with: “I’m just being real.” “I tell it like it is.” “People are too sensitive.”
No. Sometimes you’re just harsh. Honesty without compassion becomes brutality. Yes, truthful conversations matter. Accountability matters, but delivery also matters. You can correct someone without humiliating them. You can express frustration without tearing someone down.
People who grew up around constant criticism may normalise harsh communication styles because that’s all they know. But if your words regularly leave people feeling small, anxious, or emotionally wounded, that’s something worth examining.
5. You Refuse to Respect Boundaries: Do you become offended when someone tells you “no”? Do you pressure people until they give in? Do you feel entitled to constant access to people’s time, energy, or personal space? That’s a major red flag.
Toxic people often interpret boundaries as rejection. Instead of respecting limits, they take them personally and retaliate emotionally. For example:
• Giving someone the silent treatment because they couldn’t answer your call immediately.
• Guilt-tripping friends for spending time with other people.
• Pressuring a partner to share passwords, locations, or private information in the name of “love.”
Boundaries are not punishments. They are healthy limits that protect emotional wellbeing. If someone setting a boundary makes you angry, ask yourself whether you genuinely respect other people’s autonomy or only like them when they are convenient for you.
6. You’re Always the Victim: Life can be unfair, and many people have genuinely experienced painful things. But toxic behaviour appears when someone refuses to acknowledge their role in recurring problems.
Every failed friendship cannot be entirely everyone else’s fault. Every breakup cannot always mean all your exes were “crazy.” Every disagreement cannot end with you being completely innocent. At some point, patterns deserve investigation.
This doesn’t mean blaming yourself for everything. It means developing enough self-awareness to ask:
• How do I contribute to conflict?
• What behaviours keep pushing people away?
• What unhealthy habits have I normalised?
Growth begins when defensiveness ends.
So… What Now?
If you recognised yourself in some of these signs, don’t panic. Self-awareness is uncomfortable, but it’s also powerful. Toxic traits are not life sentences. Human beings can change, heal, and unlearn harmful behaviours.
The key is willingness. Start by:
• Listening without becoming defensive.
• Apologising sincerely when you hurt people.
• Going to therapy if unresolved trauma is affecting your relationships.
• Learning healthier communication skills.
• Respecting boundaries even when you dislike them.
• Practising empathy instead of always needing to be right.
Healing is not just about becoming a better version of yourself for you. It’s also about becoming safer, kinder, and healthier for the people who love you.
Sometimes, true growth begins with the courage to admit: “Maybe I’m part of the problem too.”
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